Memories Are Beautiful....: October 2009

Many bad things happened to my family…few weeks ago, my mum was in the hospital for a simple operation…that was just a quite simple operation and she stayed in the hospital for 2 days 1 night only...although it’s only 2 days but my dad and I also quite worried about my mum…she is fine now...but now my dad is in hospital because he got dengue fever…he suffered from headache and fever since last Saturday…he ate panadols only…he thought he’ll recover after he ate panadols for a few days…but his fever last for a few days…so until Wednesday…my mum brought him to the hospital…doctor said he got dengue fever but he don’t allow my dad to stay in the hospital…do you know what the doctor said???he said my dad was not that serious until need to stay in the hospital…but I saw my dad suffering from headache and his body had no energy…he just ate panadols given and slept at home…the doctor also called my dad to go the hospital every morning to have blood test…I knew my dad was suffering and for me it’s already very serious but don’t know why the doctor just don’t let him to stay in the hospital…it’s not that I hope so much for him to stay in the hospital...but it’s because I want him to recover faster…the first time I saw him suffering from pain was when I was still in kindergarten…I remembered something like nerve was on top of his cartilage somewhere around the lowest part of his backbone…so it’s painful…at first, he could feel the pain when he walked…but later on, when it’s getting more serious, he couldn’t even walked…I remembered he just slept on the sofa with all those Chinese medicine’s smell around…at last, he went to the hospital and the doctor said he had to operate his back to remove the nerve and some of the cartilage…he couldn’t walked because the nerve was hurting the cartilage…that was a serious and risky operation…he couldn’t walked the rest of his life if the operation failed…I was still young that time and I always thought that my dad couldn't walked n even die if the operation failed…I still remembered the day before his operation, my mum, my second sis and I went to visit him in the ICU…my dad was so worried and scared because the operation may fail but finally he took the risk for operation…that was the first time I saw his tears…the picture of my mum holding his hand called him don’t cry and not to worry is still in my mind…most of my family members including my grandma and about 20 relatives were outside the operation room during the operation…the picture of everything is still in my mind…the operation took a long time…all of us were so worried that time…finally, the operation room’s door opened, I saw my dad on the bed pushed by a nurse still unconscious…my auntie, my father’s eldest sister held his hand and kept saying “everything will be fine…” to him…my dad heard what she said and nodded his head…the operation was successful and everything is fine now…he can walk and run now…thank god for that…okay…come back to the what’s happening now…so until Friday morning…my mum fetched him to the hospital n the doctor said my dad need to stay in the hospital because his blood was too concentrated…so he stayed in the hospital since Friday till today…my sis came back from kl n penang too…when both of them came back, I’ll have holiday feel…but without my dad, everything will be meaningless…this few days, we spent most of the time in the hospital to visit n accompany my dad and I never study at all…when I saw my dad in such condition, I’m not in the study mood…he is suffering from headache again…his face turns pale…both his hands are filled with injections’ holes…every 6 hours, he’ll have blood test…when I saw him suffering from pain, my heart will be pain too…today it’s the third day already…I just come back from hospital and he got difficulty in breathing…I’m so scared when I saw the machine…hope he’ll recover as soon as possible…I want my healthy daddy back…I miss our funny chat , his jokes, his laughter and letter from him to me every morning and everything…hope everything will be fine…exams…oh no!!!

xoxo...